Intentional healing,
Inspired art.
A little note…
I always thought personal growth was serious endeavor, that it had to be perfect. Every goal/self-help mission was rooted in an “everything-or-nothing” mindset.
I had to do 10 million new habits perfectly from Day One or I wouldn’t bother at all. And better yet- I was only allowed to enjoy life once I had accomplished everything I set out to do. The catch? Even if I did, it was never good enough to be satisfied. It was obsessive, unsustainable, and fundamentally flawed.
Turns out, you can’t punish yourself into self-love.
My “maladaptive perfectionist” approach to healing was going nowhere… Despite countless “75-hard” challenges, debilitating discipline, and motivational podcasts- I was no closer to contentment, fulfillment, or peace. Still bitter. Still burnt-out. And far from achieving the life I dreamt of- I had even begun to hate my passion for art.
I lost touch with the whole point… Living for the sake of being alive.
So, I decided I was due for a little experiment.
What if I did the exact opposite of what I felt wired to do? What if I decided to intentionally let go instead of push harder. Instead of setting an impossibly long list of goals to accomplish by the end of the year, I turned my focus from tangible accomplishments to internal ones.
I built a framework for the year, I’d focus solely on ONE healing topic at a time, giving it my undivided attention and room to breathe within a 30-day structure. At the end of each 30 days, I’d keep what resonated, and move on to the next theme. The goal was to simply learn what works and learn what doesn’t. No pressure- just curiosity.
Overtime, the growth experiment across each theme began compounding. Slowly building foundational daily habits and mindsets; slowly changing my life. All of a sudden, “healing” started feeling exciting. Little projects to look forward to.
And better yet, that excitement became contagious. It became effortlessly motivating to accomplish new and more aligned goals (to finally build a business I LOVE and start painting again!) WITHOUT the constant forcing and burning out- now learning to move from a place of presence, self-compassion, and purpose.
It still isn’t perfect, but I like it better that way.
Healing can be lonely, frustrating, and exhausting… my hope is to create a space that invites a different perspective on healing, not as an urgent and mandatory pressure, but as something gentler and more compassionate: because you’re not damaged, you’re not running out of time, and you’re not meant to “do it all at once”.